Post Project Downer Syndrome.
I’m
sure it exists. It’s the downer a person has after a move or a major change in
life. It happens at the end of a major project, when you finish your last
assignment for your study, and lots of other times in life.
Our
office has just moved into it’s new building. This has been on the cards now
for over 12 months. And that doesn’t include the planning stage, getting the
funding, waiting to see if we got it or not. This is just the building being
built. Is it ready yet? Will it be this
week? All the planning. For the last 3 months we have been packing, throwing
out, sorting and organising a building that has been our for the last 9 years
or so. We are a very small team, so there was plenty of work.
For
a month, every week, we were going to move next week. Each time, something
wasn’t quite finished. Finally, the move happened. It was funny really. After
all the planning, thinking, worrying, dreaming, it was over. We are in our new
building. It is great. Lots of little things need fixing. Lots of little things
that can drive you nutz. Lots of complaints from clients. Gee it’s awful
clinical. There shouldn’t be so much white here. What about parking? But we are
moved in and everyone is getting used to the new situation.
Suddenly
everyone is cranky and tired. We’ve had so much adrenalin for so long. Now the
adrenalin is gone. We are settling into the new routine. The excitement, the
adrenalin is gone. Now comes the downer. Nothing to look forward to. The happening
has happened and we are pleased with the change. But the world feels totally
different. The only way I can explain it is that I constantly feel a little off
balance. Nothing is where I expect it to be. Instead of immediately going to a
cupboard for some paper, I have to think about where it is.
Same
thing happens in everyone’s lives. We plan. We organise. We worry. Will it go
okay? What have I forgotten? What do I need to do next? Have I made the right
decision? What will the future be for me now? What will it look like? Then the
happening happens. We are pleased with our decision. But………………. Suddenly I’m
very tired. I love our new building. I love all our new gadgets. I love our new
staff room, the fact that we have more
than one toilet, the space, the brightness, the colours. But………… suddenly I am
very tired.
Why
is this?
Human
beings like regularity. They like routine. Look at your daily life. From the
time we get up in the morning we all have little routines that make our lives
simpler. They are so second nature we are not even aware we are in a routine.
We drive to work the same way every day. Even simple things like going to the
toilet, we fold our loo paper in a certain way.
So
when that routine is changed, it takes the human time to make new routines. New
ways to fold our loo paper.
Change
is scary for many people. It may only be a little bit scary, but change means
new routines.
Change
means excitement, worry and many other emotions. When the change happens, the
excitement, worry and other emotions last for a short time afterwards. Then the
downer hits. Tired. Maybe a bid depressed. It’s an interesting mix of emotions.
Soon,
the change becomes the norm and the new routine is built. This takes time. And
building new routines can be tiring in itself. But after 60 years of life, one
thing I have learned. Nothing lasts forever. Soon, maybe sooner than I think,
my new routine will become my comfortable, familiar routine. I look forward to
that time.
Madeleine
Thursday,
26 October 2006